Hello blogosphere… It’s been nearly a year since my last post and a lot has happened in my life. I won’t bore you with the details in this message, but in later entries I will attempt to articulate emotions, reflections, frustrations, and possible lessons this season in my life. I’m realizing the importance of communicating not only verbally, but emotionally, and tangibly; it’s time for me to evolve so I can help impact the world!
I’ve owned this site for over 4 years and have not been consistent with my entries. There are a few reasons for this:
1. Apathy: I just don’t care to write sometimes. I’m more comfortable talking or showing you my feelings or intentions for change. This is how I naturally grew up; I wasn’t strong in English/Language Arts, and as a young boy, I was groomed not to express my feelings/articulate through words, but through actions. As I mature, I realize the importance of the written word and how writing helps you free your mind of apathy.
2. Lack of Time Management: To write effectively really takes a discipline and talent (which I don’t really have). So to compensate, I must be intentional with my entries; I have completed/drafts of journal topics accumulated from the past year that’s ready to be seen, but I have to be committed to consistently communicating (which I also struggle with in real life-yet another journal topic, lol)
3. Paralysis by Analysis: People get judged by their work; with social media, I have to be careful with what I put out in this space so it won’t come back and bite me.
4. (And most importantly) My insecurity: I’ve let fear control me, my thoughts, and my actions. Whether it’s insecurity to complete tasks in school, to the fear of rejection, to the fear of losing someone else in my life, I’ve let that spirit dictate my actions. That leads to apathy, being unorganized, thinking too hard, preventing me to do God’s Will for me; to be a walking testimony so I can influence.
So for the next few weeks I will pour my life out to you; you will hear my opinions of some current events, the frustrations of society as an African-American Young Professional who wants to teach and reach others, my viewpoint on how millennials can (and will) change society, some of the lessons learned from my experiences, and how to become influential in your personal, civic, and professional lives.
Until next entry…
Mr. Matt Houston 